Longing

"It was when I was happiest that I longed most...The sweetest thing in all my life has been the longing...to find the place where all the beauty came from." -C.S. Lewis


One of the women from my Bible study shared this quote with us last week and it has been on my mind ever since. A few weeks ago I wrote about my now-married, now-grad student life and how things have really settled. I'm happy. Really happy. 

Yet, still I long. Maybe it's a lack of contentment. Or maybe not. It's different than dissatisfaction with life; rather it is a longing. 

And I think that's a good thing. Because even at my happiest I am reminded that this is only a glimpse of what should be. 

And it reminds me that I must pursue the face of God every day. I must persevere in faith. And embrace the longing. 

Because like most good things, it's the anticipation that makes a good things even better. The bride and groom waiting for the wedding day. The novel that leaves you in suspense until the last chapter. 

The waiting, the longing... it can be hard. But also, it can be sweet.