I'm a saver. I've saved (aka hoarder) practically every penny since the day I was born. Sure I have my spendey moments, but often feel guilty, return things or vow not to buy anything ever again. I am the a budget Nazi. If it looks like we're going to be over on the grocery budget if I get more food I will make due with rice and beans and whatever else is in the pantry until the next month.
We are lucky (note I'm not saying blessed, I hate the connotation of blessing and financial prosperity) to be in a good place financially. Our parents helped us both to pay for college and only have the tiniest bit of student loans which are not collecting interest since I'm in grad school. That's huge. And we both found jobs right out of college. And Jordan is an engineer, so that helps.
I wouldn't say we're super extravagant with our money. We save and invest and give.... But there's still lot left over. We have a nice house. And nice cars. And can take nice trips...and we're only two years out of college. And honestly, sometimes I feel guilty...about having more than people we know. Sometimes I even feel judged (or maybe it's a guilty conscience) -- that we are spending too much or not giving enough or not saving enough. And maybe that is true....
The weird thing I've noticed about money though is that whether I've had a little or a lot...it can really become enslaving. I can feel bound by my frugal tendencies -- always over-analyzing every purchase, every dinner out, every bill. Or bound by the need to keep up with Joneses -- always wanting the next new thing. Or even bound by the struggle between the two.
I've noticed too that my need to save money is often motivated by a need for security, or even pride. I don't want to ever have to be in need or to ask someone else to help us out or look irresponsible.
I guess with money, there's something to be said about balance. About trusting God but being responsible at the same time. Balance in giving and spending and saving. About listening to the voice of God for wisdom in when to take a risky leap of faith and when to be faithful in saving and giving.
I don't have this money thing figured out. And I probably never will. But praying that I can be faithful in the small things. Because all I have is not my own. It is ultimately God's, a gift to steward and to enjoy and to give freely.
What has God taught you about finances and stewardship? Words of wisdom are always appreciated :)
