Not Settling.

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Yeah. That phrase really annoys me.

It gets thrown around a lot in the  Christian dating scene.

Oh, he's not a holy as Paul the Apostle? Honey, don't settle. Wait for a guy who really loves the Lord. Oh, he doen't have a job lined up after graduation? Don't settle for that kind of guy.

Seriously? This drives me crazy. Don't get me wrong. A potential mate needs to love the Lord. He needs to be a good leader. He needs to be responsible. He needs to be growing in Christ.

But he doesn't need to be  perfect. That's impossible anyways.

Ok. So that was a tangent.

Right now I'm a molecular biology Ph.D. student. I like it. And I'm actually kind of good at it.
But I'm still trying to figure out if that is really what God wants me to to be doing right now with my life.

But at the same time, I feel like if I don't pursue something that makes good use of my mind in the academic sense, then I'm settling.

I don't want to limit how God can use me based on the fact that I'm good at taking tests and analyzing data. I don't even want to limit how God can used me based on the fact that I enjoy science. I don't want to limit how God can use me, period.

I want to do whatever God has called me to. Even if people think that I'm settling. Or that I'm not living up to my potential.

I can use my mind is so many different ways. I want to be able to think outside of the box in terms of my ministry and how I spend my time.

So thats what I've been thinking about these days. Grad school. It makes sense. I'm good at it. I like it. And maybe that is what I am supposed to be doing -- and God has uniquely gifted me because of that. But I don't want to limit God if it is something else.

Praying for opened and closed doors. Praying for wisdom. Praying. Praying. Praying.