Overwhelmed

I’ll be honest here, I’m overwhelmed. I have to keep reminding myself that God’s grace is sufficient. I don’t do well under pressure. Planning is not my forte. I’d rather just let it happen…apparently that doesn’t work when you’re trying to get married. On one hand, I think it’s wonderful that friends and family are coming to celebrate one of the greatest days and decisions of my life – I want to glorify God by showing family and friends what Jordan and I believe Scripture teaches about marriage. And I really do think it is an incredibly important day and I want to give it the time and care that is due. Yet at the same time, I am disheartened by what “weddings” have become – often selfish and materialistic. I would rather spend hours of time and energy on preparing for marriage than preparing for the 5 or 6 hours of my wedding day. So while I don’t want to downplay the importance of the event, I also don’t want to get caught up in the little things.

The important things are that Jordan and I are getting married,  that we will be able to celebrate with our friends and family, and that we will bring honor to the Lord in not only the celebration of our marriage but in our marriage itself.

I think sometimes I’m too hard on myself. I’m not going to be able to please everybody and I keep reminding myself of that fact.

So my readers, could you please pray for me. Pray that I would be able to enjoy this wonderful season of being engaged and planning a wedding and preparing for marriage. Pray that I would have grace under pressure, a grace that flows from the grace that God has poured out so generously on my life. And pray that I would remember that my priority is to glorify God.